Last Friday was comparable to Christmas morning for me! I was so anxious, and so very excited to have Boo sealed to our family forever. She is and will always be an intricate part of our family dynamics. She is just so sweet! Little Boo is finally ours and I just can't get over it. :)Before we were selected to be Boo's adoptive parents, I finally, after 3 years of 'waiting' had come to a place were I was ok with just having Bug. I felt blessed to be able to have her call me mommy and my heart was at ease with family building. But... just when you get comfortable, or think you are comfortable as an infertile woman someone you know becomes pregnant, or is blessed by adoption and it brings ALL of those insecurities and longings back to the surface. So I think I told people that I was ok with just one, but I really wasn't. I longed to have another baby in my arms and I really wanted Bug to have a sibling.
When Boo's birthmother first contacted us I began to feel HOPE again. I couldn't believe that we could be so lucky to be blessed by adoption again! I am still in amazement of the great gift that both of my daughters are to me. I really would not be the person I am today without them. I thank God EVERY day (multiple times) for their birthmother's love and Heavenly Father's grace. I am a mother because of unconditional love. I am pretty lucky :)
Now I can honestly say that I am so happy with having two children. I am in love with both of my girls and can't give them enough kisses and tickles. My heart is full, the emptiness and longing to have another is gone. My soul is at peace...
