So it begins...again.

Fall Semester starts tomorrow. The feeling isn't really excitement in our home, I'm trying to change that. The Artist is feeling chained to the Provider... I need to let him know that it's OK that I'm playing the role of the provider right now. It's so hard for him to let go of that.

I left him a love note and a note of encouragement. I hope he takes it to heart and really feels that I mean to be by his side through EVERYTHING.

I am also hoping he will be inspired by his Professors to reach higher and dream bigger and just go for it.

The biggest link in our chain now is TIME. We really need more of it. I know I've said it before, but it's hard being out west without anyone to help us. We miss our families and haven't 'replaced' them here. So in a sense we are alone in our big adventure. This is partially our own fault, I am sure there are people in our world that would help us with time if we asked, but we don't ask. We just keep to ourselves, I call it being shy. But I also think it's because we are afraid to let other's into our lives. What would they think of our decision to sacrifice steady income and a 'normal' schedule for a dream? I did it because of love, because I KNOW that The Artist is a true, raw, passionate talent that the world needs, but will other's understand? Would they be willing to be our 'replacement' family and help us raise our girls and be successful? I don't know...

Things are pretty much the same...

and that's o.k. but....


School starts up at the end of this month for The Artist. I wish so much that he could go all out with his projects, but our life isn't simple. He just doesn't have time, or the energy to BE The Artist. It's so frustrating to me, because we really have sacrificed a lot to get this far following passion and faith and now that we are here it's SO HARD. I am not sure how to make things easier. The only thing that would really help would be if I didn't have to work full-time, but that's not an option right now. We need to pay our bills and provide health insurance for our wee ones. So we will keep going and see what our breaking point is. Hopefully we can pull through and The Artist will be able to balance everything. (me too)

(The Artist did this sculpture in school, I'm not sure about all of it, but I do know that he mentioned that it's a self portrait and that sometimes he feels like he has so many thoughts and so much going on he wishes he had a brain drain. I think I'm about at that point too hopefully this blog will help me drain my thoughts) :)

On a lighter subject The Artist let me buy a new storage shelf for the girl's play room, I LOVE IT!!! I've been working on trying to organize our life before everything goes crazy again and this makes me so happy. I've been trying to decide how to get things organized in our tiny little nest and this is for sure helping. Thanks to Bug's pre-school teacher's great advice I've found one solution. Speaking of Pre-school teacher, I love her so much! She is so nice and kind and smart and creative... I want to be like her :) It's good to have role models even as an adult and I pick her, she loves my children and has been a support to me this past year even if she doesn't know it. Yesterday we stopped by to drop off some books that Bug had borrowed and she was so welcoming and it made my heart warm to have a friend. Sometimes it gets lonely just having friends at work and of course The Artist is my best friend, but we really don't get much time together either, I miss him too.